silent spectator

I am seating in the hall, as a silent spectator, watching the speech of some distinguished people in one of the toppest conferences in my major.

They are beside me, and I can hear them talking, I can hear them smiling, but I can not even find a problem to impress them, because I know who I am. However, i do not feel any sense of uncomfort, because I know who I will be some years later, just talking and smiling all the same way.

Today I ran into a respected scholar; Today I also got neglected by someone from another university. I am quite aware of the reason, you will be truely respected only when they know who you are, or who is behind you.